Musings

Wow...It's been roughly two months (happy, Carlo? ;b). A lot can happen in that time span, apparently, both good and bad. Bad first...

I'm sick of working at Home Depot. They used to have at least two people outside at all times. Now, it's usually one (me) alone -all day-. It's a long day. Hard, too. It's hot and sunny, and people are mean. And, it's crazy busy. So, I get two or three calls. At once. While I'm trying to clean up the lot. Blegh.

Now...good.

I'm going to stop working at Home Depot on the 19th (which is in nine days...three of which I'm free). I'll have time to go shopping for glasses, buy more dorm stuff, get a checking account, get vaccines, pack, get a computer, etc. I'm pretty much the only one who's saying "we still have blah blah to do and NO TIME." My mom's still in the "you have 21 days" mode, which will turn into "you've got a weekend." Love her, but she drives me crazy.

I've finally reached a good point with myself. Earlier this summer, when I'd just gotten out of a relationship, I realized that I depended too much on men to...feel good about me. I figured, if they loved me, why should I have to. Once I was single again, though, I realized how miserable it made me. So I decided I was sick of it. It was going to change. End of story. And it has. I can believe now that I deserve to be pretty and comfortable and happy. And I am. I'm pretty damn comfortable with myself (body, mind, and spirit). I'm happier (in general) than I can ever remember being in a VERY long time, and it feels great. I can't believe I ever settled for less, and I'm determined not to go back. I love me, and I'm comfortable with me. I'm not perfect. SO WHAT!!! *grins*